I feel like i am lying to everyone

I am with the only person who i can really be myself with and i still dont feel

I am so shit at all of this. I get so so scared and panicked and i cant even do it anymore

I really fucking hate this town, and all ther people here. Its drowning i am drowning




Today, I read an article about a woman with HIV who was raped. The man that attacked her is now HIV positive. All of the commentary surround this was about how she should have told him she was HIV+ and that women with HIV should have a badge or special underwear so that this doesn’t happen to another man. It is 12:12am and I am already done with the world. 

That is rape culture

this makes me so unbelievably mad

I feel so shit all the time and he is far too good me and i dont mean to push him away

You were too young and so full of life. You had so many plans and we all miss you so much

You try do shit for people and they just throw it straight back into your face.

Plot twist: I just had sex